tidal emotions

It feels good to be back in Seattle. Of course, I am in my Happy Place, my neighborhood Starbucks, and Scott is in his Happy Place, his basement office. Emotions for Scott and I have been a constant up and down for almost a full week now. The bummer of it is that hitting the rock should have been nothing more than a glitch in the trip. We should have floated off the next day. But the central coast of BC isn't considered "rugged" for nothing. Lately it seems like the positive emotions have had more reasons to ebb than flow. Sorry, all of sailing seems to make for easy and obvious metaphors. If this were aligned with a lunar cycle, I'd say we hit a Spring Tide yesterday. Everything, for me at least, seemed to be at extra high-highs and extra low-lows, with strong currents flowing between them. Well, maybe the highs haven't been as high as the lows were low. Today feels much mellower.

But at least home is comfortable. At least cell phones work and an internet connection is already paid for along with the other household bills, and it always works. And my Starbucks chai is only a few blocks away.

Yet, inside my head and heart, there are still the glimmers of hope. Hope that we will get back on the boat next week, and still manage to eek out a little more of a northerly heading before turning back. Not all options have been explored yet. There may still be time to salvage a good chunk of the trip, if things manage to start looking up. If they actually start the repairs. If they finish when they say they will.

While we are home I can do some marketing and Scott can work on the website, getting it ready for the next stage of hopefully allowing us the boating lifestyle we want. There is never a lack of things to do, that's for sure.

I still think I've learned far too much from all of this to not keep sailing. It would seem such a waste to have a new understanding of so much, then little chance to use it. My appetite has been whet, and I don't expect the desire to be back on the boat to pass swiftly away in any current.